Year of the Boar, Fifth Month, Day 20.

So long it has been since I last wrote, that I can barely remember how to hold the brush and form characters... once again my penmanship has become a disgrace to my House. Lord Kenta was long in his absence, and every day I grew weaker, not able to leave my room, the light was poor and I became feeble, I am not sure that my wits have not faded along with my strength. The child Tomoe lay floating between this world and the next for several weeks, and though I could not get to the temple, I did my best to offer my supplications to the Goddess from where I sat.
Eventually Lord Kenta did return and with him an ill humour... he refused to speak, mostly barking orders at me when he had decreed that I no longer needed to be "protected" and upon my enquiry into Tomoe's health, he told me that she had recovered but would not be strong for a long while if ever at all... I wept tears of thanksgiving but his lordship remained unmoved... he would not tell me the reason for his change of heart, nor would he touch me.
He refuses me permission to visit Tomoe and he still has me under "protection" when he does not have me by his side. I had thought things between us were improving, that perhaps a spark of what he used to feel for me was still there... it seems I was wrong... I do not know what the future holds...